Well, today was…..fairly awful.
It’s amazing how my scale of measurement has changed in the last 20 days. I’m so deeply longing for “normal”, even though 20 days ago I was complaining about normal. Now, I would take a “bad day” pre-corona any day over THIS. I don’t even need to explain what THIS i
Wake up. Remember that a virus is practically bringing the entire world to
Mostly, my daily life and responsibilities are the same as pre-corona. I’ve got a household to run, three kids to keep in line and feed, and a husband to love and cherish. But post-corona I have a lot more worry. Not only am I not allowed to leave the house to wander around, but I also feel the weight of the world. Have you ever been to ground zero? It’s almost eery. You can FEEL the weight of grief as soon as you cross the street into that plot of ground that once held two tall towers, crumbled to the ground in dust and silt and dead bodies. Even the children somehow became more hushed when they walked around ground zero. That is how the entire atmosphere feels, from the moment I open my eyes in the morning to the moment I close them at night.
It should come as no surprise that todays weather was gloomy and dreary. Its crazy how my mood usually matches the weather. I really, truly need to work on that. Not being gloomy and moody, not being so worrisome and pessimistic. I think that is one thing this will teach me. But it makes me wonder…is there a time in my life that I will look back on THIS time and wish that I had been thankful and grateful and considered it “good days”, instead of not? Just some convicting words for thought for myself on this dreary Wednesday night.
I love you! Try to not be too hard on yourself. Nobody expects you to be perfect. I’m hoping today will bring sunshine and warmth!